'Keep this between me and you..'

'... Don't tell your mother, but if you want to live your life,

then pack your bags and leave quietly,' he said.

'Write me a note telling me that I am no longer your father,

and that you are no longer my daughter. But please don't 

bring everyone else down with you.'

'Ok,' she said.

With her heart so black with hatred she let the tears roll and the time pass,

and thought to herself, 'I'm free.'

'Please?'

... she asked.
'No,' he replied.

And that was the moment she realised she fucking hated him,
for everything and nothing all at once.
If being nice were not second nature to her, she would
have shoved him the finger.

shit.

Well fuck you and everything you stand for,
for nothing matters,
I just miss you.

Don't

waste your time on me,
You're already the voice inside my head.

-Blink182, I Miss you

3 words that kill me inside

MAYBE ONE DAY.

I feel

this draft in my chest,
where once there was a wind breaker,
now only lies the occasional speck of dust.

Here,

Where you once were there is a stain.

Tears...

...are the soul shedding its skin.

Inside me

There's all this pain, all this hurt, all this sadness
that I know is there but I can't feel it.
My heart is so heavy I can barely hold myself upright.


I try to cry and I can feel it welling up 
but the tears won't come, won't fall, won't escape.


There is no relief.
My emotions trapped in a vacuum.
Where's that open door people speak of?
I can't see it.


I'm trapped in a homemade prison.
Like I led myself here,
To try and capture the me,
I no longer want to give to others.

Have you..

Ever seen a human heart?
It looks like a fist covered in blood.


~closer

Nostalgia's

cold arms wrap around me at night,
and pull me so far back 
I will never move forward.

If my heart were a flower...

I think it just wilted.

End Credits of my life

I can feel, something happening
that I've never felt before
Hopeless dreaming will start,
Dragging me away from heavens door

When my mind stops thinking,
My eyes stop blinking,
I hope
Somebodys there.

And my heart stops beating
and my lungs stop breathing
in air,
I hope somebody cares,

I...

...Actually don't know anymore.

I Just...

...wish I could reach the Moon

Emptiness vs happiness

~ Don't be fooled by your emptiness, 
There's so much more room for Happiness~


-Skylar Grey