who am i but a lonely soul, a mind unable to share its thoughts, a creature whom no one can love

What is love but an illusion

created by man to make themselves

believe that someone but themselves

understands and appreciates them.

I cannot not breathe without you

but alas I cannot stand the stench when you're around

Ghosts

Ghosts don't die,

for they are already dead

Memories are like ghosts

walking through the snow.

They leave no traces of having

once been there.

.

You took my heart,

in your hand,

with every word you wrote

you tarnished my heart

you torn and broke it apart

the tears they fall

onto the ground

like rain on spring day

the days they fall

and blend together

but not when you're around

I saw the light

small and shining

maybe it was too far ahead

maybe it was just an illusion

~I don't know how and I don't know why but I still love you~

heartbreak

~BEAUTIFUL DISASTER~

it's a waiting game from here

The further you get into a relationship the more it hurts when you realise things are going wrong or when you argue, maybe its because the person means so much more to you at that stage and although you're frustrated and angry, you're also scared to hell that what you said hurt the other person beyond repair. This is probably why a lot of friends and couples don't always say exactly what they need to or are thinking, although the saying 'Think before you speak' is a valuable lesson to learn trust me. The scariest thing also is the deeper you go the more of you the other person holds to destroy, which also works both ways. This could mean that the smallest thing could hurt the other person, but in contradiction to that you should also be more forgiving towards the other person the deeper you get because you become more sympathetic and understanding of the persons personality traits and behavioural tendencies.
There is always that strange feeling you get when you think someone might not want you around, so naturally you step away and wait for them to approach or for some kind of sign that they are ready to talk about it. But what if there are no signs and no approach is it then ok to make the first move? Putting too much distance could potential make the other person believe that you don't care which is never really the truth. Sometimes you wish you could help but there is no conceivable means of helping because the other person isn't ready to accept it and then the only thing to do is wait.
~time heals all...apparently~

...

I dislike summer due to the heat, and maybe because it limits me
to what I do. I don't like being hot its like walking around with a
constant fever. =[ I like being active and running around loads but I can't do
that when its ultra hot and I just feel like sleeping. It doesnt help that
I feel like something is missing or not quite right.

Mon Coeur

What is it to be in love with the forbidden fruit?
Oh no c'est pas vrai mais oui, c'est moi.
I am in love with what seems like a distant dream, I did commit a sin and I ceased it with both hands to
say the least, I loved every moment of it but that doesn't make it right. Though I do not regret
but that doesn't make it right either. To commit a sin against someone else, a sin in which you
yourself would never want to be at the consequence receiving end.
Alor c'est la vie avec l'amore et les problème.
C'est un problème avec mon cœur parce que j'adore il =[
ciao