Inside me

There's all this pain, all this hurt, all this sadness
that I know is there but I can't feel it.
My heart is so heavy I can barely hold myself upright.


I try to cry and I can feel it welling up 
but the tears won't come, won't fall, won't escape.


There is no relief.
My emotions trapped in a vacuum.
Where's that open door people speak of?
I can't see it.


I'm trapped in a homemade prison.
Like I led myself here,
To try and capture the me,
I no longer want to give to others.